The Relief of Letting Go and Living Fully Despite My Anxiety

The Relief of Letting Go and Living Fully Despite My Anxiety

“We only live once, Snoopy.” ~Charlie Brown “Wrong. We only die once. We live every day.” ~Snoopy I am an anxious person. I haven’t always been though. When I had my first child, fourteen years ago, it was the week after my father died. My son was born and went right to the NICU where he spent the first fourteen days of his life. In that moment, I changed. I’d already had one miscarriage. I couldn’t lose anyone else. Man, life is fragile. I spent the next decade making sure he played...

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Why We Often Fail When We Set Big Goals and What Actually Works

Why We Often Fail When We Set Big Goals and What Actually Works

“You do not rise to the level of your goals, you fall to the level of your systems.” ~James Clear If you pull up any popular motivational video today, you’ll probably hear things like “Set big goals!” and “Aim high and don’t stop until you get there!” After watching a video like this, you may get inspired and start mapping out your plan to leave the 99 percent in the dust. And typically, because you’re riding a wave of motivation, you’ll write out these monstrous, Mount-Everest-like...

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How I Developed Self-Worth After Being Sexually Harassed and Fired

How I Developed Self-Worth After Being Sexually Harassed and Fired

“Your value doesn’t decrease based on someone’s inability to see your worth.” ~Unknown In my early twenties, I was a food and beverage manager at a nice hotel in Portland, Maine. About a month after I started working there, they hired our department director, a man twice my age whom I would report to. At the end of his first week, we went out for a “get to know each other” drink at a loud and busy bar. As we drank and chatted, he was physically very close to me. I told myself...

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Why “Find Your Purpose” is Bad Advice and What to Do Instead

Why “Find Your Purpose” is Bad Advice and What to Do Instead

“The meaning of life is to find your gift. The purpose of life is to give it away.” ~Pablo Picasso I was fifty-two when I found my purpose. I wasn’t even looking. It literally just smacked me upside the head. That’s a funny thing about life. It throws things your way, and you either grab them and run with them or you turn a blind eye and walk on by. I used to turn a blind eye. I don’t anymore. These days I’m taking in all that life tosses my way. The good, the bad, and the ugly. How My...

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Where Our Inner Critic Comes from and How to Tame It

Where Our Inner Critic Comes from and How to Tame It

“Your inner critic is simply a part of you that needs more self-love.” ~Amy Leigh Mercee We all have that critical and judgmental inner voice that tells us we’re not good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, etc. It tells us we don’t do anything right. It calls us stupid. It compares us to other people and speaks harshly about ourselves and our bodies. It tells us all the things we did or said “wrong” after communicating or connecting with someone. Sometimes it projects criticism outward...

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I Was Addicted to Helping People – Here’s Why It Made Me Miserable

I Was Addicted to Helping People – Here’s Why It Made Me Miserable

“As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself, the other for helping others.” ~Maya Angelou Growing up in Africa, I was told that the virtue and worth of a woman lies in her ability to take care of everyone around her; that a woman was considered good or worthy when everyone around her was happy and pleased with her. I took this advice to heart, especially since I watched my mother meet this standard to a T. Putting everyone else, including strangers,...

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Before You Reach Out to That Person from Your Past: 3 Things to Consider

Before You Reach Out to That Person from Your Past: 3 Things to Consider

“You don’t have to rebuild a relationship with everyone you’ve forgiven.” ~Unknown It’s natural, when you’re hurting and lonely, to want to reach out to people you’ve been close to in the past. Especially if there’s unfinished business with someone. And especially given the added isolation that comes with a global pandemic. Whether or not you do reach out is entirely your prerogative. For what it’s worth, I don’t necessarily think it’s...

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I Was a Bulimic Nutritionist, but I’m No Longer Ashamed or Hiding

I Was a Bulimic Nutritionist, but I’m No Longer Ashamed or Hiding

“Shame derives its power from being unspeakable.” ~ Brené Brown I felt like a hypocrite. I would tell my nutrition clients to eat a salad with vegetables, then I’d go home and scarf down an entire pizza. After guilt and shame set in, I would purge and throw it up. I think I became a nutritionist partly so I could better control my relationship with food. If I learned the secrets behind eating I could biohack my way to putting the fork down, losing weight, and finally being happy. This...

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Hurt by Negative People? How to Stop Taking Things Personally

Hurt by Negative People? How to Stop Taking Things Personally

“Some people are in such utter darkness that they will burn you just to see a light. Try not to take it personally.” ~Kamand Kojouri The saying goes that money makes the world go round, but of course that’s not true. It’s our relationships. How we relate to other people and how they relate to us keeps our world turning. When things go well, all’s right with our world. When things go badly, it can feel as though our world has ground to a halt. This is exactly how I felt whenever I had a...

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How I Stopped Feeling Unworthy of Love (And Finally Learned to Receive It)

How I Stopped Feeling Unworthy of Love (And Finally Learned to Receive It)

“I hope you find love, but more importantly, I hope you’re strong enough to walk away from what love isn’t.” ~Tiffany Tomiko When I was in my early thirties, I briefly dated someone right after my divorce. It was one of those fast and furious things that had no label and left me wondering if I made most of it up in my head. It wasn’t the first time and it wouldn’t be the last. How many times had I ended up feeling rejected and abandoned? I was trying so hard to impress a partner, but...

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