“In some ways suffering ceases to be suffering at the moment it finds a meaning.” ~Viktor Frankl When life goes sideways, it can be hard to take one more breath, let alone find meaning. Trust me. I know. In the same year, I had breast cancer, chemo, radiation, and a divorce I didn’t want. There’s more to the story (there always is), but in essence, I lost everything—my health, my love, my home. During all of this, I lost sight of myself, quit trusting myself. I was sure I was to blame for...
Read More“There is no place so awake and alive as the edge of becoming.” ~Sue Monk Kidd From a small café overlooking the boat harbor in Seward, Alaska, I looked out the window at the enormous mountain peak of Mount Alice that protruded from the earth behind rows of tour boats, sailboats, and a cruise ship large enough to carry several thousand passengers. The last few days of my summer there were coming to an end, and I reflected with gratitude on my time there. Located directly off the Gulf of Alaska...
Read More“The truth is that there is no such thing as a negative emotion. Emotions only become ‘bad’ and have a negative effect on us when they are suppressed, denied, or unexpressed.” ~Colin Tipping Emotions are constantly and powerfully guiding our lives, even when we are not aware of them, even when we do not feel them or are convinced that we can exclude them from our experiences. Emotions give us precious, sometimes indispensable information about what is best for us, about the best choices we...
Read More“You can’t go back and change the beginning, but you can start from where you are and change the end.” ~C.S. Lewis It was a dark January day in 2008 when my auntie called with the news “He did it.” I felt so confused. “Did he try? Or did he succeed?” I asked as my body moved into shock. “He succeeded,” she said. And in that moment my whole life changed. This was a moment I often wished for—my dad was gone. Dad had taken his life on January 8th, 2008, two days after...
Read More“When you do things from your soul, you feel a river moving in you, a joy.” ~Rumi As I stood on the doorstep of that rehab facility, I felt completely empty except for the overwhelming weight of anxiety and shame. In that moment, I wondered what all the normal people were doing today. How did they cope? And how was it that I couldn’t hack life and that things had spiraled so far down? It’s hard to admit you have a problem. To be honest with yourself when you’ve numbed everything out for...
Read More“If you don’t love yourself, you’ll always be looking for someone else to fill the void inside you, but no one will ever be able to do it.” ~Lori Deschene This year I have fallen in and out of love. Not once, not twice, but three times. Firstly, I fell deeply into being held, being heard, and being supported. For the first time, in a long time, I understood what it meant to be loved. Secondly, I flew quickly into a spontaneous soul, who lit up my world and reminded me who I was. Thirdly,...
Read More“Keep all special thoughts and memories for lifetimes to come. Share these keepsakes with others to inspire hope and build from the past, which can bridge to the future.” ~Mattie Stepanek I stood over a pile of my son’s t-shirts, scissors in hand, my breath ragged. I reached for a plain, dark blue one that I didn’t remember Brendan ever wearing. My fingers trembled. The first cut would be the hardest. I’d packed away his shirts eight years ago, within weeks after he’d died. He was only...
Read More“Create a life that feels good on the inside, not one that just looks good on the outside.” ~ Unknown Since childhood I have been a high achiever. As a kid I was a perfectionist, driven to succeed, to be the best at what I did. I wanted to do well so that both my parents would be proud of me and love me, especially after they divorced. At school and college I worked hard to get straight A’s. Anything less seemed like a failure to me. I was always top of my class, and I won awards. However,...
Read More“Authenticity is the daily practice of letting go of who we think we’re supposed to be and embracing who we are.” ~Brené Brown Have you ever just wanted to relax, let go, and let yourself be? Why is this so challenging for so many? Why don’t we just live naturally and allow our authenticity to be felt, expressed, and seen? Well, when many of us were little, being authentic was not okay, so we focused on trying to do things the “right way” according to what others had to say,...
Read More“As rain falls equally on the just and the unjust, do not burden your heart with judgments but rain your kindness equally on all.” ~Buddha Our burdens come in many forms. They are our relationships, our responsibilities, and our pasts that haunt us from beneath our consciousness. They weigh us down and prevent us from experiencing life’s true joy. Some people have to care for a sick family member most of their life. Some women give birth to stillborn babies. Some soldiers get their legs blown...
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